BOOK of T

ottebya — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 23:36:54 +0000

a green glass bottle

in the empty apartment

stands silhouetted

ottebya — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 04:02:06 +0000

mind was full tonight, observation was lost, though these types of sessions have an odd feeling of necessity and importance

ottebya — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 11:45:07 +0000

koan slipped into the meaningless repetition realm this morning and mind was quite sloppy yet easily directed, uber early morning sitting has quite a peculiar flavor

ottebya — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 23:41:59 +0000

just sat and observed tonight, tried to be at ease and let I and mind hold each other like teddy bears

ottebya — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 16:19:50 +0000

counted breath, guts, heart, throat, stomach all had stuff to say this morning

ottebya — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 23:36:58 +0000

mind wanted to think and plan tonight, nowhere nowhere

ottebya — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 00:41:00 +0000

some profound koan insights were like a paper thin sheet of ice tonight, each time i tried to observe one my attempt only succeeded in melting it, none the less i was curious to notice them at all since i felt at the beginning of the session that my exploration of the koan was entering a stale phase, then i began to realize that “mind comes forth” is kind of a given and can be applied to any phenomena that is registered by the 5 senses plus thought and memory, so as soon as a phenomena is noticed immediately labeling and exploring it as “nowhere” can bring about some interesting feelings about the relation between space/time and self

ottebya — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 00:06:30 +0000

double session tonight, first half could only observe a mind like a windshield covered in peanut butter, dull and would only smear with no clarity, it actually cleared up on its own towards the end and seemed like a good opportunity to focus during a second sitting, got some practice with chakras and more koan

ottebya — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 03:26:32 +0000

koan was like mantra tonight, plus very focused mind considering how beat-up body was from being in the cold all day and how late and tired i am

ottebya — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 02:09:28 +0000

counted breath, not many thoughts tonight, very simple